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2002-01-14<>6:52 p.m.

i think i had my first anxiety attack this morning.

i have never thought of myself as being one who is anxious, but when i walked up that hill on campus and saw all the people walking around, and then i started thinking about the people i knew and the college connection teachers and how i think they would be disappointed in me for leaving florida... i had a hard time breathing and i felt like crying.

i saw nick chandler, hes a cool guy. "look at all these people!" i said. "yeah... theyre everywhere" he replied. "school wouldnt be so bad if there werent so many people" i then thought to myself.